so this is the new year...

...and i don't feel any different

i start off the first post of each year that way. death cab lives!

it's funny how i'd actually rather sit here and beat myself up about not blogging than actually blog.

masochism.

this is my 11th day living here. we're squatting in an apartment that's very old, but clean and functional. we put an offer on another short sale (why is every house we like a SS?!?!?!), so now we get to wait to hear from the bank(s).

i got crazy spoiled by staying with my parents in dallas for two weeks. big comfy bed, my mom did my laundry and took me shopping every day. spoiled. eden and ella became bff.

then the night before flying here, i decided to go bat shit cray cray. so scared to leave my family and fly to a strange apartment in a strange city.

i'm much better now. i've found a target, a mall and a liquor store. and 283942224922 starbucks. so i'm good.

also, i've been watching "glee" on netflix and reading "the hunger games." i am almost caught up on pop culture.

i was in bed at 11:50pm on NYE. fail.

and running up massive hills in the cold is like a slow death.

soundtrack of 2011

i usually post the songs in chronological order...but since this year was ridicrazy, i didn't get a chance to keep a running list.

civilian - wye oak

so american - portugal. the man

i can never relax - hellogoodbye

pink champagne - lovedrug

monster monster - the almost

terrible world, give me more! - the bigger lights

direction - the starting line

she was raised by a man with a sickness - bradley hathaway

kmag yoyo - hayes carll ( got made fun of for that one)

plath heart - braids

you told the drunks i knew karate - zoey van goey

go outside - cults

abducted - cults

you know what i mean - cults

oh my god - cults

for you - angus & julia stone

down in the valley - the head & the heart

we will all be changed - seryn

simple math - manchester orchestra

unrequited love - lykki li

mr moon - eisley

baby - warpaint

home - edward and the magnetic zeros

your hand in mine - explosions in the sky (theme song to FNL)

i and love and you - the avett brothers

like a fool - lawrence arabia

don't stop (color on the walls) - foster the people

pumped up kicks - foster the people

thin air - aqualung

rox in the box - the decemberists

take your mama - scissor sisters

look at me now - chris brown ft busta and lil wheezy (i WILL know all the words by 2012)

i'm leaving some out. i always do.

"you win, you always do."

- robert goule

the 12 days of new orleans

i have 12 more days here. twelve car-less days. apparently it takes a loooong time to ship a car to portland, so we went ahead and dropped his car off at the shipping place and we're just left with rosie.

this post was interrupted by her highness, ella the butt, who "needed" to go potty and in the process, i locked myself out of the house. none of my neighbors were home, but they were showing a house across the street. so i scurry across the street in my fuzzy snowflake slippers and ask the potential tenant if i can use his phone. thankfully, he was a nice guy and matt was able to come let me in. but still...ella's fault.

speaking of showing houses, we're hoping to move into this little jewel in the next couple of months.

we gave away 90% of our furniture last night to a sweet girl that had been in eastern europe as a missionary for the past 6 years. so we have nothing to put in said house. but it sure is cute. and portland has an ikea (!!!)

as you know...

...we're moving to portland, or

but in case you didn't know, here's some pics of portland and all her beauty.

now shopping for a raincoat and hunter wellies.

coming soon

i'll (most likely) have some news to share in the coming days.

until then enjoy this picture from christmas 2007

tear jerker

i'm not a big crier at movies. i've been known to well up during certain films (blue valentine), but mainly just if an animal died. not a human. animal.

but there have been 4 movie/tv moments that have made me cry like a big dumb homo.

i will share them with you, in chronological order:

1) ok, fine, i sobbed after i saw pearl harbor. i saw it in the theater in high school. i was misty-eyed during the scene where danny is dying and raf tells him he's gonna be a daddy. but then i got in my car to drive home and lost it. i sat in the parking lot, bellering on the phone to my mom about how they named the baby "danny" and raf and evelyn raised him together. i missed my curfew.

2) when ryan atwood left at the end of the first season of the oc. run-on sentence. but seriously. ryan does the noble thing and leaves the cohen's mansion to go raise his bastard kid. literally drives off into the sunset. but when jeff buckley's "hallelujah" starts...and kirsten starts stripping the sheets off his bed and sobbing...UGLY.CRY.

3) i was way late in seeing the shawshank redemption. but after i saw it, matt literally had to hold me, while i pressed my salty sticky face into his polo shirt. the old man that works in the prison library is released from prison. nowhere to go. doesn't know a soul. and he winds up hanging himself. this poor, old grampy hung himself. and it tore me up something good. major soft spot for fogeys.

4) friday night lights spoiler. but you see it coming a mile away so it doesn't really matter. first off, i just love matt saracen. the way he talks like his mouth is full of marbles. his patience with his schizo grandma. i want a travel-sized matt saracen. but then...when his father dies. wow. the performance zach gilford gives as he goes through the 5 stages of grief is incredible. it was a long, hard, snotty, swollen-eyed sobfest.

i have to go. i have a...food...in the oven.

fantasy knuckleheads

last year, matt joined a fantasy football league at work. neither of us were really into the NFL before (except for the saints!), but it was really fun. especially since he won. so i wanted to play this year.

we started a league with some friends from church that was originally 5 girls and 3 guys. so me and my friend, meredith, decided we really needed to punch it up with some girly team names. we eventually had 2 more guys join the league, but that didn't stop me from naming my team "the monistat 7." and with a current record of 0-3, i have last place firmly locked.

i usually don't have fun when i lose, but this is still fun. matt, of course, is undefeated. anything that involves some element of luck is an automatic death sentence for me. the brashears are not known for their luck.

in other news, tiny little ella biscuit had to get her yearly shots yesterday and she is beyond puny today. we enjoy laughing at her misery, which bodes well for our future children.