I guess I've been on a posting hiatus. It's mainly because posting on a tablet is a PITA, but I'm also lazy. Never forget how lazy I am.
I really can't think of much that's happened these last 3 months...
We saw Muse play and it was awesome AND it was on a weeknight, so we proved we are still as cool as the young cats. And people. I didn't actually see any cats there.
We also saw Frightened Rabbit again in March and the girl standing behind me at the show got her boyfriend to tap me on the shoulder and tell me that my ponytail was in his girlfriend's way. I stared at him incredulously. And of course, I immediately hacked off my ponytail. I mean, it was in this poor girl's LINE OF VISION.
The humanity.
I also got a new tattoo. On my still-numb arm. And it was still unpleasant. But worth it.
On a serious note, I have had the sadz lately. Like can't-climb-out-of-this-hole-might-burst-into-tears-at-any-second kind of sad. Nothing really has happened. There was some stressful weeks at work. But everything is ok now. I just can't get un-sad and it's starting to get really lonely. I'm pretty good at being fake-happy when I need to be, but it gets tiring and I find myself being nonchalant and dismissive when people talk to me. Then I feel like a jerk. And that makes me sad(der).
I just needed to say that somewhere. When people at work say "Hey, Sommer, how are you?" I know they're just expecting a "I'm fine!" Not a drawn-out sob story about teetering on the hairy edge of a nervous breakdown. That's not well-received in a corporate setting. Even if the kegerator is out.
And today, the kegerator is NOT out.
I can't end on such a glum note.
Here's good news: Ella has some fur growing back! Fuzzy, soft baby furs! She no longer has a back that only a mother could love.
Little White Dress with a Cardi on Top
16 hours ago
First things first...you should have slapped her with your fat ponytail. Your hair is thick, too, so it would have probably stung.
ReplyDeleteI hate you've been blue. Sucks when there doesn't seem to be a rhyme or reason but you can't shake 'em. Hmm maybe this is why you've been on my mind. Your post reminded me of something...one time after my mom's mom passed away we were in my hometown and someone randomly saw us (about a month after) and asked how she was. I knew she was falling apart but the person who asked, and I, both expected her to do the "oh I'm fine how are you" thing that we all do. But she didn't...she was honest and she talked (more like spewed) for about five min about how sad she was and that she missed her mom and wow. The lady was so visibly uncomfortable that she got an honest answer. I swore to never be that person...so if I ever ask, know that you can spew on me. You know what I mean.
Yayyy for Ella's new back hair!
"So you can go shave your back now."
It's sad how much of my brain space is occupied by movie and television quotes. Sad...or...amazing? Hmm.
I love ya!
Why are my comments always embarrassingly long.
ReplyDeleteI have a lot to say.
And only a captive audience of babies and chihuahuas to listen!
We had someone at Rick's funeral ask us how we were doing, and I just kind of stared at her. Mainly because a) she was not a close friend and b) how the crap do you think we're doing??? I don't know. I know we're in the south and people are trying to be nice in asking that question, but I always wonder, too, what they are really expecting. Maybe we need another "polite" question to ask -- like, "How's about I buy you a cup of coffee since I know you've been up all night with a baby?" Or maybe with lunch. Or a drink. Lol!
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