must just be cynical...

seriously. i'm either a hopeless cynic or incapable of love. if love is defined by the sugary-sweet nothings and *muah muah muahs* i have to subject myself to on facebook. it doesn't make me think negatively of anyone but myself, so don't feel like i'm dissing you.

should i be more open with my feelings? maybe that's what i'm doing when i type on this here saccharine-free blog...

maybe that's why matt's perfect for me.

sometimes i'd prefer to not be told secrets because when someone else finds out, i have to act like i had noooo idea about it. then i feel like i'm lying.

oh my gosh i'm watching "half-ton teenager" on tlc.

fml.